and i admit, it was actually alright .. ended up screwing up the creative, but i think i gunned the essay ... hopefully.
now i`m just attempting to focus on paper 2 and a bit of pdhpe ..
next week :
monday - paper 2
wednesday - pdhpe
friday - ancient
sighhh. let`s hope i can somehow gun them all, hahaha. and then i get a lil over a week`s break to study for legal & bio, and then another 3 day break for bio.
can`t wait =].
the end is so close .. =D.
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& more ...
so i was looking at the tv guide this afternoon, and saw that Night at the Museum was going to be on tonight ..
in all honesty, this annoyed me more than it should have. well, not annoyed .. just brought up past memories.
Night at the Museum came out in 2006 ... and this was the first movie we ever watched together, and for a long time, the only movie. but i digress.
i remember sitting in Burwood cinemas next to you, hand in hand ... just watching the movie together. sigh.
and then i believe we were going to go George's Cafe for lunch, but i said nah dw, just hungry jacks is good. and back then, there was still the games arcade in burwood where we spent a bit of time as well. eventually we left bwood and went back to stra, where i bus-ed it home .. ending up needing to wait a bit longer than expected since it was a public holiday.
OH ! i remember going to cityhunter as well for a short while ! i ended up just msning and .. i think it was bebo back then .. HAHA. hm. and you kept staring at me ...
and i also remember after the movie i ran up the ramp and waited for you to try and find me .. and i remember you hugging me from the back. haha i really liked those hugs ... =/ ..
our first, and pretty much only, date. [ignoring when we watched Pirahna 3D not too long ago, or your place, or the cruises with your friends]. my first kiss. hmmm ... something i can never forget ey ..
i don`t know why i`m remembering all this now. sure it has always been in my memory, but i never needed to bring it to the front of my mind. i`m not sure why now, of all times.
maybe because i`m starting to realise we`re only ever going to be friends. that however many times we can try to be more, that will never happen. friends .... can you live with that ? i think you can, considering how it`s been the past few days, lols. and i think .. i can learn to live with it .. honestly, what choice do i have ? XD.
not that i matter, anyway.
but after all the remembering about the past, i also realised .. the night we took a step back, i was so close to saying 'i love you', which is something i don`t say often to a guy in that way .. nor was it something i thought i felt at the time. you never know what you had until it`s gone, i guess hahaha. such a sad world ....
ohwell, that`s the past i guess.
i really do miss you though .. as a friend or more, i don`t know.
but i miss just being with you, hanging with you, being on the phone for ages with you ....
maybe one day we`ll have that again.
and maybe one day i`ll finally figure out where in my heart you are.
either as a friend, or more.
and maybe one day you`ll find out how i`ve always felt about you, and probably always will ;
i love you ♥
When you love, you get hurt. When you get hurt, you hate. When you hate, you try to forget. When you try to forget, you start missing. When you start missing, you fall in love again ♥
and that`s the cycle i`m a part of, when it comes to you, hahaha.
4 - 5 years is a long time, afterall ....
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