fiftyone ; f r i e n d s ?

The way it felt no fakin' it

Maybe we were movin' just a little too fast

But what we've done we can't take it back

Now I'm sitting here halfway crazy

'Cause I know she still thinks about me too

And it ain't no way in hell

That I can be just friends with you

-- Can't Be Friends, Trey Songz.

fifty ; g r a d u a t i o n 2 0 1 0

well. we`ve finally done it. we`ve finally GRADUATED !

*celebrates*.

HEHE.

but amidst all the happiness and relief of graduating, of finishing high school, there`s still a tad of sadness, of the dull realisation we`ll never be in the same rooms again, same hall, same canteen, same toilets [ew], with the same teachers and peers, on a routinely basis.

high school is over, and the only time we`ll be in the school again next is during our hsc, and when we sign out and return textbooks.

i guess we could call that the final goodbye.

i also guess missing the school and the usual routines will be inevitable. we are so used to the norm that change is an instant dislike. i`d personally say that`s due to human nature. afterall, who does like change ?

haha, i know i don`t. and so many things have changed over the years at stgghs.

friendship groups

teachers

classes

the canteen, HAHAHA.

the school buildings itself

and ourselves.

it`s all inevitable ...

graduation was quite a good day. i didn`t cry =]. guess my tears were used up the day before hahaha. and i think it was also cos my mum was there >_>".

i had fun, and i`m sure i won`t forget anyone at school, any time soon.

we`ll catch up after hsc, during our massively long holidays =].

and we`ll have fun !

hehe.

CONGRATS SEN10RS !

WE`VE GRADUATEDDDDDDD WOOOOOTTT !!!!

fortynine ; m o c k ! ! !

well, today was mock assembly day !

it was fabulous !

kudos to those who wrote the script, acted, helped out, EVERYONE !!!!!!

my throat is killing me from all the screaming today hahaha !

and score ! got to chuck candy at people HEHEHE. 8D.

well guys, there`s just one more day of high school left !!!!

>_<" nuuuuhhh ~

well actually, YES ! but ... going to cry again )=.

yes, again. LOL !

okay maybe i won`t in front of my mum >_> .....

it`s actually hard to believe we`ve been at stgghs for 6 years.

we`ve gotten through ! the good, the bad, the ... yeh. mindblank atm because i`m so tired.

but you all know what i mean.

tomorrow`s graduation, and then it will become extremely real.

we will finally be done with high school, officially.

done with year 12.

what a relief !

but of course, a bigger relief when hsc is over =]. hehe.

good luck to everyone ~ !!!!

a special SHOUT OUT to those SSPS reps who graduate tomorrow from stgghs with me !

we`ve been schooling together for 13 years !!! we`re awesome (H). hahaha !

will miss you all heaps !!!!

to my group, if you read this:

I LOVE YOU ALL. SO MOTHERFUCKING MUCH !

and i hope we stay in contact, still see each other when hsc is over, party together, chill together, just everything together !

... well, almost everything =P.

but i`ll never ever forget any of you.

we so need a group photo again tomorrow ! hehe. =].

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fortyeight ; f i v e m o r e d a y s

wow.

five more days of high school.

and out of that, technically only two have "lessons"

or should i say, parties.

wed - fri is rehearsals, muck up day, mock assembly, graduation assembly (school & year 12) and garden party ..

in only a few days, our 6 years of education at stgghs will be over.

=/.

....

...

I`M GONNA PARTAYE SO FUCKING HARD, AHHAAHHAAHAH =DD.

but tbh, i think i will miss a lot of things about hs .. =S.

sigh.

and then there`s hsc.

so close, yet so far.

fuckmylife. LOL !!!!

people, we better keep in contact after hsc ! you know who you are *stares*.

>_<" gonna miss you all ... =/.

this was quite short. ohwells. HAHA.

---

miss you nub. hope you`re feeling better ... >_<""" sighs. =S.

fortyseven ; w h e n i f i r s t m e t y o u

& when i first met you,

i never would have

imagined that i would

have such strong

feelings for you.

i never would have

thought that i would have

dreams about you or

miss being by your side

or get butterflies

in my stomach

when someone mentions

your name.

when i first met you

i never would have

thought that

i would love you.

fortysix ; m y f a u l t ?

i have just one question for you :

what did i do to make you ignore me like this ?

>_<"""" .....

fortyfive ; g i v e n u p

welll ! i`ve given up on that 30 day challenge thing, 20 days into it. haha. it started getting harder to answer for me personally .. but yep. sorry to those who kept up with reading it .. if any XD.

anyway,

SIX MORE SCHOOL DAYS LEFT, FUCK YEHHHHHH !

SO FUCKING HAPPY.

cannot wait til school`s over.

and then til HSC is over hehehe.

my november is so packed, WOOT ! i think my dad`s going to kill me before mid-november XDDD.

was meant to get report today, but i left early .. so tomorrow morning. boooo people got to see the new gym )= ohwell ! will make ms take our pdhpe class in hehe ;D.

ghey gym, we don`t even get to use it ! HAHA.

on a completely unrelated topic ..

i don`t know what you want with me haha. we took a step forward, i did truly try, but then you said we should take a step backwards ... and now ? now `re just friends, but i feel as if we`re drifting away again. ever since what you told me last week, you don`t seem as if you want to talk to me anymore. no worries, i won`t call or text anymore okay ?

i`m sorry that wherever we go, whatever we do or whatever i say reminds you of her. i don`t mean to do that .. but i`m just wondering, is that partially the reason why you gave me that talk about taking a step back ? lols. you should have said that in the first place and not the other stuff, whether or not they were your reasons too. i think this reason would have made a bigger impact on me haha. and still does ...

but hey. that`s alright. i lived through something like that once, i`ll live through it again. funny thing is, both times were because of you. is that just bad luck for me ? hahaha.

hm. i remember you saying last week we`d still be friends yet not go off with others. now i`m just questioning how reasonable that is ... i`m not sure i want to be tied to a guy who`s not over his ex, haha. not sure how fair that is to me ....

sigh. i know i won`t be able to forget you; i mean we`re still talking after so many years, so many months of no contact etc.

but you know what ? i`m not sure i can try anymore. i`m not sure i want to. how long will it take ? lols. you know me, i know me. i`m the type of person who wants to mess around a bit, have fun, party, get wild [ish] and stuff .. and lols. we both know you don`t like that very much, ey ?

maybe .. maybe something might happen between us for real in the future. third time lucky ? but neither of us will really know. maybe some time soon down the track you`re with another girl, and i`m with another guy. or still partying, LOL.

the future`s not set in stone.

but yehh .. i`ve given up.

guess i need to focus on hsc anyway .... >_<"""".

and it seems like yesterday, it was just a dream .. but those days are gone, they`re just memories ...