anyway,
SIX MORE SCHOOL DAYS LEFT, FUCK YEHHHHHH !
SO FUCKING HAPPY.
cannot wait til school`s over.
and then til HSC is over hehehe.
my november is so packed, WOOT ! i think my dad`s going to kill me before mid-november XDDD.
was meant to get report today, but i left early .. so tomorrow morning. boooo people got to see the new gym )= ohwell ! will make ms take our pdhpe class in hehe ;D.
ghey gym, we don`t even get to use it ! HAHA.
on a completely unrelated topic ..
i don`t know what you want with me haha. we took a step forward, i did truly try, but then you said we should take a step backwards ... and now ? now `re just friends, but i feel as if we`re drifting away again. ever since what you told me last week, you don`t seem as if you want to talk to me anymore. no worries, i won`t call or text anymore okay ?
i`m sorry that wherever we go, whatever we do or whatever i say reminds you of her. i don`t mean to do that .. but i`m just wondering, is that partially the reason why you gave me that talk about taking a step back ? lols. you should have said that in the first place and not the other stuff, whether or not they were your reasons too. i think this reason would have made a bigger impact on me haha. and still does ...
but hey. that`s alright. i lived through something like that once, i`ll live through it again. funny thing is, both times were because of you. is that just bad luck for me ? hahaha.
hm. i remember you saying last week we`d still be friends yet not go off with others. now i`m just questioning how reasonable that is ... i`m not sure i want to be tied to a guy who`s not over his ex, haha. not sure how fair that is to me ....
sigh. i know i won`t be able to forget you; i mean we`re still talking after so many years, so many months of no contact etc.
but you know what ? i`m not sure i can try anymore. i`m not sure i want to. how long will it take ? lols. you know me, i know me. i`m the type of person who wants to mess around a bit, have fun, party, get wild [ish] and stuff .. and lols. we both know you don`t like that very much, ey ?
maybe .. maybe something might happen between us for real in the future. third time lucky ? but neither of us will really know. maybe some time soon down the track you`re with another girl, and i`m with another guy. or still partying, LOL.
the future`s not set in stone.
but yehh .. i`ve given up.
guess i need to focus on hsc anyway .... >_<"""".
and it seems like yesterday, it was just a dream .. but those days are gone, they`re just memories ...
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