fiftyfour ; s u n r i s e

for the first time in a while, i pulled an allnighter without meaning to.

i wasn`t even studying.

and as i type this post, the sun`s rising, and i`m sure in no time at all, the light will pass through my window into my room .. well, whatever light can get past my curtains

sunrise ... i haven`t seen it in so long haha .. sigh.

>_<".

i guess this post is for me to contemplate why i was up all night.

and i`ve come to a few conclusions ...

1. not tired. LOL.

2. i miss you.

3. i am, for some odd odd ODD reason, thinking about the beginning of last month, about us etc ..

4. i miss you. ohwait. i said that already. ahwells.

can`t help it, even after the shit you`ve said recently ... sigh ...

what is wrong with me ? hahaha.

i need to find better guys, fuck !

but anyway .. wow.

it`s 513am ...

and i`ll be at library from 9-4, i think. sigh.

wonder if i`ll fall asleep there .. probably. HAHA !

just wondering if i should be bothered getting any rest =_='.

or else i`ll sleep and not wake up on time .. especially since i have to shower and all.

GAH T_T.

until the day the ocean doesn`t meet the sand ... now and forever ...