one-oh-seven ; w h y ?

does not feel like christmas is coming.

nor new years.

got jackshit plans.

SIGHS.

boxing day sales ! i need monaye )=.

working on 26th, so should be okay .. ish .. at night .. omg kill me now, i don`t want to )= ...

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bubs .. i really don`t like hearing your thoughts about doing stupid shit.

i really don`t like hearing about how you`re scared you`re gonna fuck up your mum`s car by drifting so much.

just fucking stop then, PLEASE.

and those thoughts about doing stupid shit ? ..

i guess in a way i`m glad you`re telling me about it, even tho i feel really shit hearing about it.

i can`t believe you asked me what i would do if you died.

i can`t believe you said i`d forget about you and shit.

fuck.

do you think that little of me ?

do you really think i don`t give a shit about you ?

because, think about it, if i didn`t care, why the fuck am i still listening to you now then, hey ?

why the fuck am i still here for you, hm ?

use your brain. use your head. THINK PROPERLY.

as i said .. if you think that badly of me, then i`m not even going to bother changing your thoughts.

if that`s what you want to believe, then so be it.

i really did mean it when i said i don`t like hearing shit like that from you.

yes, i wouldn`t like hearing about it from other people too, but especially not from you ...

and the fact that you`re doubting me is cutting.

thanks.

...

i`ve told you before, idk what i`d do without you. i sent you that in a bloody text.

and in another, i said i want you in my life forever.

the fuck is wrong with you ...

okay.

can`t really blame you since you`ve got so much shit going on .. but still ..

sigh ...

hope things work out for you soon ...