onehundred ; a n n o y e d D =

STOP WAKING ME UP WITH YOUR PHONE CALLS OMFUCKINGOD ==.

you do it ALLLLL the bloody time.

whatthefuck.

it`s as if you know when i`m sleeping, and you just wanna wake me up and annoy me.

SHJVBFNAKJFNIFHABHFBAKJDSNAKJSDN

)=.

SIGHHH.

payback`s a bitch, remember that >=].

i`ll get my revenge ....

post 100, ey ? ohwell.

meh.

hahahaha =D.

ohnoes i have to work for 4 hrs tmrs night )=

stupid restaurant ==".

ohfuck, driving tomorrow at 1ish =X.

watch out, drivers in greenacre ! ..........

i feel sorry for my instructor already, LOL ! >>"" ...

ninetynine ; s c o r e !

you called me on sunday night.

i`m surprised.

but sweeeeeet ;

i lasted longer than you ;D.

i miss you.

took you 3-4 days after you were back from melbourne to see how i was doing ...

thanks ..

and i really did forget you said you wanted to take me for my first clubbing experience O_O'

ohwell. you can take me when i turn 18 ^^.

hehe.

clubbing with you.

might be a tad awkward .. =X.

ohwell. hahahaha.

ahhhh looking after my friend`s dog until 29th.

hehe. the doggie`s settled in nicely, which is good ^^.

=].

gonna get viv la to bring her dog over, muahahhaa.

and fuck, nearly got caught by dad for smoking.

good thing i got back inside and started makin my middle-of-the-night-snack on time =D.

SWEEEEEEET. =D.

ninetyeight ; f o r m a l # 2 & m o r e

so today ... or yday ... LOL. i had another formal =]

scots college formal at randwick racecourse.

was quite good haha. the music wasn`t my type .. but ahwell.

i still had fun =].

went clubbing after !

scared shitless going in, but still, got in so all good =D.

QF @ The Mansion (Y).

was reallly funnn !

but now i`ll wait til i`m legit to go haha.

good experience.

but i still wanna go ATAR you lATAR =X.

hmmm .. )= .

we shall see ...

i had heaps of fun hehe.

and i have a blister now ==

GG.

ohwell.

ahhhh it`s 430 now. gotta be up by 930-10 ..

going out at 1030 with family. FUCK

HAHAHAHA.

O_O'.

ohwell.

had a great night. got home a lil before 4am, but dad didn`t rage, so i`m happy.

relieved.

yehhhhh (H).

=D.

---

on another note, you have texted/called me yet.

and i will do the same until you cave in ==.

LOL ...

=D.

ninetyseven ; t h o u g h t s ?

can`t help but wonder if you`ll contact me now that you`re back from melbourne.

or due back tomorrow [today seeing as it`s 2am]

i have no idea.

i`ve missed you these past 3-4 days.

sleeping and waking to thoughts of you is quite .. blehs ...

ohwell.

it`s become quite the usual ..

meh.

sleep time haha.

ninetysix ; t o n g h u a

so, everyone knows tong hua.

right ? =P.

anyway, i came across this english & chinese cover of the song about a week ago, and i`ve been obsessed with it since then ..

i`ve also learnt the eng lyrics, so hehe =D.

get to sing it in both mando & eng now ;D ..

hmm .. if only i was bothered to learn the korean version. HAHAHA.

anyway, check it out !!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uuh_IfVtJ3M

ninetyfive ; c h a n c e s

i never stood a chance, did i ?

then why did you bother ?

haha ...

ninetyfour ; - - - - - -

dearest jaime,

you`re the biggest fucking idiot in the world.

sincerely, heart & brain.

ninetythree ; l a l a l a

post hsc is making me so bored.

and so lazy.

fuck.

i stayed home today .. surprised ?

i am too, considering it was a saturday night, haha.

sigh ...

is it really too much of me to ask you to be there for me when i need you to be, to the best of your ability ?

considering how i`ve always been there for you, through thick or thin, i don`t think so.

but .. i really don`t know what you consider 'friend' to mean ...

i really need to you right now.

i just want a phone convo at the moment ..

but if that`s too much to ask for, then don`t worry about it.

funnily enough you just replied to my text from before ...

coincidence much .. ?

meh.

i`m really curious. why`d you say the stuff you did last night ?

why`d you ask all those questions, knowing it`s not something you should even talk about, let alone mention, when you have a gf ?

.....

sigh.

... here you go again, texting stuff you shouldn`t even think about with me.

aiiiish ................

i`m so confuzzled )= ...

>_<".

so. frustrating. sigh ... =/.

lalala.

too bad tmrs is sunday .. or else i`d go out.

one day at home and i`m already fed up being cooped up )= ..

i should do my resume, hahaha.

=X.

too late to get xmas casual tho, i think ..

ahwells.

drivedrivedrive, then, next week .. HAHA. =L.

WHATTHEFUCK

I THOUGHT SHE MOVED OUT.

WHY IS SHE BACK ?!?!?!?!?! ..

NOOOOOOO

T_T"".

ninetytwo ; c h a n g e s

i remember ;

the days where i had to convince you to hang up when we were on the phone ; this used to happen every time we chatted, long into the night/early morning. sometimes we`d both have school the next day ..

and now ? now you`re quick to hang up. when i`m not in a rush or anything, i wait for you to hang up. i wait .. and see ..

i remember ;

the days where we`d be on the phone for so long, when we`d talk about meaningless things ..

and now ? short convos. still meaningless topics .. but .. it just doesn`t feel the same anymore ..

i remember ;

you singing ; i love your voice, you know that ? even when you`re just talking, i love it. it`s cute. and even cuter when you speak in a childish way like tonight when you were talking about that childhood storybook, or when you`re just heaps tired. [also like tonight].

and now ? you don`t sing to me on the phone .. you don`t have the time to. and why would you .. ? suuureee you sing at karaoke .. and suuuuure you said it was to me the other day .. but .. who do you really think of when you sing the songs that hold so much meaning in just its lyrics ? i don`t delude myself and think they`re all for me when you do sing it at karaoke .. i`m not that self centred. but i can never help but wonder who you have on your mind at those times ..

i remember ;

when i`d tease you for fun and you`d try to retaliate by tickling me and end up keeping your hands on my waist/stomach area ..

and now ? i still tease you for fun. and you`d still try to tickle me .. but .. i`m not ticklish anymore. or not as much as you first met me. and you take your hands back once you touch my waist. [i get it that you shouldn`t keep it there since you have a gf, dw.] i question you about it, and remind you i`m not ticklish. your answer ? "i know. it`s habit !"

... habit ? it takes a while to develop a habit. shows how long a history we have, hey ? ...

i remember ;

your hugs. i love your hugs too. from the front, and when you`d hug me from behind. i loved you just holding me near you .. whether we were standing or sitting, or lying down.

and now ? we don`t hug much anymore. and when we do ... it`s so light. so brief. so .. meaningless. i refuse to hug you sometimes now ... you might wonder why. my answer ? reminds me too much of the proper hugs i once got. it`s too much ...

i remember ;

once saying i hated love, i don`t believe in love, scoffing love ..

and now ? i still hate love. but i do believe in it. i don`t scoff it anymore. why ? because i know it. because i`ve experienced it. i still hate love, yes, but if you have experienced it, you know hate is something love can`t live without.

i remember ;

never saying 'i love you' to you when september happened.

and now ? i regret it. but you know now how i feel. how i`ll always feel.

i remember ;

s o . f u c k i n g . m u c h . t h a t . i t . h u r t s . > _ < " . . .

and now ? what the fuck can i do about it ? ...

[Verse 1:]

Where were you when I said I loved you?

And where were you when I cried at night?

Waiting up, couldn't sleep without you.

Thinking of all the times we shared.

[Chorus:]

I remember when my heart broke.

I remember when I gave up loving you.

My heart couldn't take no more of you.

I was sad and lonely.

I remember when I walked out.

I remember when I screamed I hated you.

But somehow deep inside I'm still loving you.

I'm sad and lonely.

[Verse 2:]

No one knew all the pain I went through.

All the love I saved deep in my heart for you.

Didn't know where I would go, where I would be.

But you made me leave.

And plus my heart it just,it kept telling me so.

-- I Remember by Keyshia Cole

ninetyone ; a l l n i g h t e r & d a y a f t e r

so ended up allnightering at intergate in city last nighta

[net cafe under george st maccas]

after stuff happened.

was with friends, so all good, but still so fucking tired.

i still haven`t slept yet ..

why ?

because the next day [today] i stayed at city meeting other people until i finally left at 730 =____="".

and got home at 9ish, fuckkkk.

went pool, karaoke ... pool .. eurghhhh T_T.

and i`m sick of intergate too, haha.

---

i don`t get you.

why is it always so damn fucking complicated ?!

or am i just thinking too much ?

everywhere we go, you say something about how it reminds you of your ex.

okay, i`m used to that.

but now every convo has something to do with your gf.

okay. i can understand that too.

but both, in one day ?!?!?!

FUCKING HELL. IT AFFECTS ME ALRIGHT ?!?!??!?!?!?!??!

FUCK.

and then at k again today .. you were singing these songs

that you sang to me yearrrrrrrs ago.

or that you used to, before recently.

and you said it yourself "i`ll sing for/to [forgot what word] you".

...

i`m not sure if it was just cos it was dark .. but if you didn`t see the fucking expression on my face when you were singing those songs ..

...

you honestly don`t know me then.

i had the biggest urge to go to the toilet and just stay there for a few mins.

but i thought i`d tank it.

all good ...

and i guess i did tank it.

and i was fine with shit ..

until the situation that occurred that had me leaving at 730;

she had gotten off work and was about to go to the pool place ..

okay .. so .. i can understand a lil bit about how it may have been awkward .. but it wasn`t just us ... your other friend was there.

why did i have to go ?

is it cos i`m a chick ?

does she even know who i am ?

what the fuck is the reason i`m not allowed to meet her ?

and vice versa, or whatever.

and that happened before when you brought james to meet her and i stood outside behind the wall shit, waiting.

do you honestly fucking think i`m going to start shit up between you guys ?!

why the fuck would i do something like that ? why would i mess up your relationship ?

do you honestly see me as that type of person ... ?

WHO AND WHAT THE FUCK AM I TO YOU ?!?!?!?!?

and fuck, i`m out of durries now. and i really fucking need a red.

but.

i will tank it.

and talk it out in dnm with friends ...