ninetyone ; a l l n i g h t e r & d a y a f t e r

so ended up allnightering at intergate in city last nighta

[net cafe under george st maccas]

after stuff happened.

was with friends, so all good, but still so fucking tired.

i still haven`t slept yet ..

why ?

because the next day [today] i stayed at city meeting other people until i finally left at 730 =____="".

and got home at 9ish, fuckkkk.

went pool, karaoke ... pool .. eurghhhh T_T.

and i`m sick of intergate too, haha.

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i don`t get you.

why is it always so damn fucking complicated ?!

or am i just thinking too much ?

everywhere we go, you say something about how it reminds you of your ex.

okay, i`m used to that.

but now every convo has something to do with your gf.

okay. i can understand that too.

but both, in one day ?!?!?!

FUCKING HELL. IT AFFECTS ME ALRIGHT ?!?!??!?!?!?!??!

FUCK.

and then at k again today .. you were singing these songs

that you sang to me yearrrrrrrs ago.

or that you used to, before recently.

and you said it yourself "i`ll sing for/to [forgot what word] you".

...

i`m not sure if it was just cos it was dark .. but if you didn`t see the fucking expression on my face when you were singing those songs ..

...

you honestly don`t know me then.

i had the biggest urge to go to the toilet and just stay there for a few mins.

but i thought i`d tank it.

all good ...

and i guess i did tank it.

and i was fine with shit ..

until the situation that occurred that had me leaving at 730;

she had gotten off work and was about to go to the pool place ..

okay .. so .. i can understand a lil bit about how it may have been awkward .. but it wasn`t just us ... your other friend was there.

why did i have to go ?

is it cos i`m a chick ?

does she even know who i am ?

what the fuck is the reason i`m not allowed to meet her ?

and vice versa, or whatever.

and that happened before when you brought james to meet her and i stood outside behind the wall shit, waiting.

do you honestly fucking think i`m going to start shit up between you guys ?!

why the fuck would i do something like that ? why would i mess up your relationship ?

do you honestly see me as that type of person ... ?

WHO AND WHAT THE FUCK AM I TO YOU ?!?!?!?!?

and fuck, i`m out of durries now. and i really fucking need a red.

but.

i will tank it.

and talk it out in dnm with friends ...