seventythree ; k a r a o k e & m o r e

so today i went to stra karaoke with silas =D

and yes i actually sang HAHA.

was pretty fun =D

then we bummed at pumpkin til about 4ish .. when he left and i met someone else

... and then guess what ?

we went karaoke ... AGAIN.

okay, i think i`m done with my karaoke cravings .. HAHAHA.

twice in one day, omg ... =S

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& more ;

found out why he never texted me back ..

my texts didn`t even get sent through cos my credit expired T_T.

GG.

sighsighsigh.

ohwell. at least i know i lasted hm ..

a week before i actually officially texted/called =DDDD.

muahahahaha >=]

i am awesome (H).

was fun hanging with you again ...

i guess.

AND LOL YOU DRIVING A RAV 4. FUCK THAT`S FUNNYSHIT.

can`t imagine you in it HAAHAHAHAHAH.

after your sports car and all ..

LMAO.

whipped ass =D.

altho .. i was thinking, when you were telling me how serious it was between you two ..

what about .. that shit you told me about .. well .. you know who ..

was that just lies, or what ?

ah.

whatever. haha. =].

and well, you finally heard me sing properly at karaoke.

i`m shit, btw to whoever`s reading this. HAHAHA.

=].

seventytwo ; l a l a l a l a l a

soooo .. i ended up sleeping at 7am this morning [or yday morning, whatever ! ] and waking at 2pm.

which explains why i`m still up at this time [even tho it`s only 127am and still early for me !]

i`m bloody bored shitless tbh =="".

nothing to do sigh.

itunes has been on for a few hours now, and yehhh ..

other than that, nothing new has happened =____=''''

OH ACTUALLY ..

got a text from him around 415pm ..

i decided to wait 30 mins before i texted back =D

and i still haven`t gotten a reply, but i`m not surprised by that.

altho

why the fuck did you text in the first place if you weren`t going to text back ?

kudos to you, you lasted 5 days before caving in. LMAO.

i`m proud of myself tho =D. hehehe.

other than that, nothing has happeneeddd ..

i`ve spent almost all day in bed cos .. well, advantages of a laptop =D.

now i`m just waiting for my dad to sleep so i can have a durreh =__=".

ahhhh ...

ohyeh ! i also need to tell him i need to go formal shoppin HAHA.

he doesn`t need to know i have a dress and shoes and bag already .. ;).

moneymoney. i`m so broke )=

10 dowlah in acc only !!! ... T_T.

so hopefully he`ll put his usual amount in for me ^^.

i know i`ll need it for nov, fuckkkk ...

altho, i might look around for another dress, since i`m going to 2 formals .. hmmm ...

=/. and if i cbf, i`ll save the money for my hotel & afters & other events, and just wear the same dress to both =D.

i only know 1 person at the other formal anyway, so mehh. ^^.

hehe got formal tickets !

ohfuck, it`s got your name on it .. you dick .. FEEL GUILTY BITCH.

=D.

doesn`t matter, i got someone else to come, so all good.

i might just give you the ticket just so you can keep evidence of you being a dog ..

or maybe i`ll keep it and guilt you forevermore ! =D.

seventyone ; a n c i e n t & m o r e

ooooooft. so ancient exam was today

or yesterday since it`s 1am now.

and it was better than expected.

but then again, that`s what i`m saying for everything, and i have a feeling i didn`t do too well in the ones before ..

ohwell. it`s all over and done with, can`t do anything about it now.

so now i have :

legal - 1st nov

bio - 5th nov

left. i get a week break ^^

cousin was going to help me with legal tomorrow, but i said i needed to catch up on sleep @_@.

so damn tired !

speaking of which, i slept this arvo .. forgot what time, about er. 715ish maybe ? and just woke up ..

crap, just realised how many hours i slept O_O'.

this is how tired and sleep deprived i am HAHA.

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hm. not much to say tbh Oo. idk.

OH.

i went karaoke with a friend after exam today at stra

was pretty fun =D.

DAMN PRO SINGER ! OMGGG )=.

all koreans can sing, i bloody swearrrrrrrr T^T. not fair. hahaha.

and LOL once i got home, i put itunes on and couldn`t stop singing

until i was tired and "napped" .... ^^""

can`t wait to go karaoke again

8D.

seventy ; p . s . i ` m s t i l l n o t o v e r y o u

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c2tzWWd9Dhk

"P.S. (I'm Still Not Over You)"

- Rihanna

[verse 1]

Whats up?

I know we haven't spoken for a while

But I was thinkin bout you

And it kinda made me smile

So many things to say

And I'll put em in a letter

Thought it might be easier

The words might come out better

How's your mother, how's your little brother?

Does he still look just like you?

So many things I wanna know the answers to

Wish I could press rewind

And rewrite every line

To the story of me and you

[chorus]

Don't you know I've tried and I've tried

To get you out my mind

But it don't get no better

As each day goes by

And I'm lost and confused

I've got nothin to lose

Hope to hear from you soon

P.S. I'm still not over you

Still not over you

[verse 2]

Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on

But there's a lot of feelings that remain since you've been gone

I guess you thought that I would've put it all behind me

But it seems there's always somethin right there to remind me

Like a silly joke, or somethin on the t.v.

Boy it aint easy

When I hear our song

I get that same old feeling

Wish I could press rewind

Turn back the hands of time

And I shouldn't be telling you

[chorus]

Don't you know I've tried and I've tried

To get you out my mind

But it don't get no better

As each day goes by

And I'm lost and confused

I've got nothin to lose

Hope to hear from you soon

P.S. I'm still not over you

Still not over you

Did you know I kept all of your pictures

Don't have the strength to part with them yet

Oh no....

Tried to erase the way your kisses taste

But some things a girl can never forget

[chorus]

Don't you know I've tried and I've tried

To get you out my mind

But it don't get no better

As each day goes by

And I'm lost and confused

I've got nothin to lose

Hope to hear from you soon

P.S. I'm still not over you

Still not over you

sixtynine ; 6 9 ;) & a n c i e n t & m o r e

i was gonna post normally, but then i realised it was #69

call me childish, but meh ;D.

oh ! speaking of that, i was at state library and couldn`t resist myself .. i just HAD to take ...

...

...

...

...

locker #69 when it was free HAHAHAHA

=D.

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& ancient ;

study later T_T. cbf atm.

i think i`ll go fine if we get solon and solon ONLY for greece 800-500bc

gotta go through cleisthenes and peisistratus

and the other topics .. sighsighsigh.

no sleep tonight ? hahaha.

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so i haven`t texted/called you in 2 days. and it`s been .. well. sorta hard to do that.

sure, i have exams to study for .. but doesn`t mean i don`t think of you ...

seems like it`s pretty easy for you to ignore me haha.

not even a call on the day you knew i was feeling shit and all ?

thanksthanks.

i can see how much i mean to you, hahaha.

why the fuck do i even hold on, even if it`s that little bit ?

i keep replaying our times together, and imagining how things would be if i had said or done something different ..

sigh.

i realllly want a durreh right now. got a new deck of reds today.

i should cut down to something weaker, and then eventually quit though.

>_<".

ohwells. can`t now, since it`s late and my dad`s nearly home ..

wait til he`s asleep then, as usual. =].

no sleep tonight T^T.

tell me what's the reason that you hold on, when you know that dude, has a whole wall of them just like you

sixtyeight ; p d h p e & m o r e

arghhhhhh

studying for pdhpe atm T_T

or well, attempting to ..

sigh .. so much content T_T. i will never remember everything ! *cries*.

and it`s gay how pdhpe exam finishes so late ....

more time to study, but .. gonna be so tired after >_<"""

and then, thursday is hardcore study for ancient all day at state ... fuckmylife =S.

ohwell. after tomorrow, never any more pd =D HEHEHE.

or well, today since it`s 231am now.

hmmm ...

so fucking under arouse )=.

will never reach optimum arousal for ANY subject ... T_T.

sighsighsigh.

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so cass and i were talking about how if he comes running back to me, for whatever reason, i should be like this :

"sorry but, who`s this ?"

" .. who ?"

" .. OHHHHHHH heyyy !"

HAHAHA.

that would be pretty epic ^^ and so worth it =D.

whether or not it hurts him =].

but to hear his reaction on the phone ... or like .. through text .. XDDD.

most epic would be if it happened in real life =D.

situation would go like this :

*sees him outside, but pretends i forgot who he is*

him: hey jaime !

me: .. sorry who are you ? o.o"""

him: ...... -blahblahblah-

me: ohhhhhhhh ! hi ! how are you ?

etcetcetc

we were talking about how funny it would be if i had a secret camera and recorded his reaction

=D.

muahahahahah.

we`re so evil >=]

but he deserves it ^_^.

but we were also talking how fucked up it would be if i end up going with him again o.o"

HAHAHAHAHA. ahwells XD.

guess i`ll jump that hurdle when i get to it .. if it ever happens again. =L.

but i won`t be so stupid next time.

not that i didn`t say that before =.=""

oops ? .....

sixtyseven ; E N G R I SH ? =D & m o r e

AHAHAAHAH ENGLISH.

IS.

FUCKING.

OVER.

CHYEAHHHHHHH !

no more fucking english, omg.

so fucking happy.

no more analysing texts - poems, films, novels, plays etctectec

no more fucking techniques.

and no more BELONGING.

SCOREEEE !

hehehehehe =D.

GOODBYE ENGLISH SUBJECT, I SHALL NEVER MISS YOU !

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studied a tiny bit for pdhpe at state lib today T_T.

fail ! sighsighsigh.

can`t wait til this week is over ^_^.

&&&&& moooreeeee ;

... felt pretty shit at the lib today

for some reason i went through old texts.

made my day a lot worse than it should be [refer to beginning of this post for why i should have been happy as fuck]

sigh ..

ended up chaining 4 reds .. shit. =/.

ohwell ...

sixtysix ; p a p e r 2 & m o r e

eurghhhh .. paper 2 is such a bitch to study for.

i`m done with it, cbf anymore.

just going to go through notes one more time .. maybe later, or maybe in the morning before the exam.

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well i can`t sleep, hence this blog post.

i`ve fucked up my sleeping pattern quite badly on the weekend;

not sleeping til 630am & later, and waking at like 2-3pm.

T_T.

and there`s one person i can blame for that !

you`ll never read this post, but yes ! i blame you for it =P.

HEHEHE.

since you did wake me up at 4am on saturday morning with a phone call =_="

causing me to not sleep until 8am .. and missing out my study sesh at lib ...

and even though you didn`t wake me sunday morning, i still didn`t sleep til 63o+am because i didn`t wake til late on sat arvo.

GAHHH.

you`re goneskies if i fall asleep in paper 2 exam ! MARK MY WORDS ! HAHAHA

once again, not that you`ll read this =D.

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&&&&&& moorrreeeeeeee

i miss you bitch.

as a friend.

i think. HAHAHA.

but i still miss you either way.

gaybo.

hate you for that )=.

and more.

but yes )=.

T^T.

sighhhhh ....

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edit @ 6am

guess i didn`t end up sleeping at all, fuckmylife =____=""

sunrise for the fucking THIRD day in a row.

SIGH ...

sixtyfive ; h s c & m o r e

okay so, first exam for my hsc schedule was english paper 1 last friday

and i admit, it was actually alright .. ended up screwing up the creative, but i think i gunned the essay ... hopefully.

now i`m just attempting to focus on paper 2 and a bit of pdhpe ..

next week :

monday - paper 2

wednesday - pdhpe

friday - ancient

sighhh. let`s hope i can somehow gun them all, hahaha. and then i get a lil over a week`s break to study for legal & bio, and then another 3 day break for bio.

can`t wait =].

the end is so close .. =D.

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so i was looking at the tv guide this afternoon, and saw that Night at the Museum was going to be on tonight ..

in all honesty, this annoyed me more than it should have. well, not annoyed .. just brought up past memories.

Night at the Museum came out in 2006 ... and this was the first movie we ever watched together, and for a long time, the only movie. but i digress.

i remember sitting in Burwood cinemas next to you, hand in hand ... just watching the movie together. sigh.

and then i believe we were going to go George's Cafe for lunch, but i said nah dw, just hungry jacks is good. and back then, there was still the games arcade in burwood where we spent a bit of time as well. eventually we left bwood and went back to stra, where i bus-ed it home .. ending up needing to wait a bit longer than expected since it was a public holiday.

OH ! i remember going to cityhunter as well for a short while ! i ended up just msning and .. i think it was bebo back then .. HAHA. hm. and you kept staring at me ...

and i also remember after the movie i ran up the ramp and waited for you to try and find me .. and i remember you hugging me from the back. haha i really liked those hugs ... =/ ..

our first, and pretty much only, date. [ignoring when we watched Pirahna 3D not too long ago, or your place, or the cruises with your friends]. my first kiss. hmmm ... something i can never forget ey ..

i don`t know why i`m remembering all this now. sure it has always been in my memory, but i never needed to bring it to the front of my mind. i`m not sure why now, of all times.

maybe because i`m starting to realise we`re only ever going to be friends. that however many times we can try to be more, that will never happen. friends .... can you live with that ? i think you can, considering how it`s been the past few days, lols. and i think .. i can learn to live with it .. honestly, what choice do i have ? XD.

not that i matter, anyway.

but after all the remembering about the past, i also realised .. the night we took a step back, i was so close to saying 'i love you', which is something i don`t say often to a guy in that way .. nor was it something i thought i felt at the time. you never know what you had until it`s gone, i guess hahaha. such a sad world ....

ohwell, that`s the past i guess.

i really do miss you though .. as a friend or more, i don`t know.

but i miss just being with you, hanging with you, being on the phone for ages with you ....

maybe one day we`ll have that again.

and maybe one day i`ll finally figure out where in my heart you are.

either as a friend, or more.

and maybe one day you`ll find out how i`ve always felt about you, and probably always will ;

i love you ♥

When you love, you get hurt. When you get hurt, you hate. When you hate, you try to forget. When you try to forget, you start missing. When you start missing, you fall in love again ♥

and that`s the cycle i`m a part of, when it comes to you, hahaha.

4 - 5 years is a long time, afterall ....

sixtyfour ; w t f . . .

for some odd reason, it hurts.

now, rather than before.

and i`m not quite sure why ....

sigh ..

maybe it`s finally sunk in ?

idk.

i just .. can`t get rid of it >_<".

anyway, i was thinking that that certain day next month could be the 'make it or break it' day, i guess.

either happy ending,

or

new beginning [as friends].

idk.

right now though, gotta focus on getting rid of the hurt, and onto hsc ! 8D.

... T_T. stupid hsc. HAHAHA.

anyway, going to amy`s place tomorrow

here`s to hoping we work diligently XD.

8D.