thirtythree ; f i n a l l y u p t o d a t e !

I AM FUCKING FINALLY UP TO DATE WITH THE 30 DAY CHALLENGES !!!!

SO PROUD.

SO TIRING TO CATCH UP.

HAHAHAHAH. =D.

past few days has had its up and downs.

ups:

♥ finishing trials last thursday !

♥ citehhh on friday

♥ Rice Fever on saturday

♥ DRINKING IN CITY ON SATURDAY NIGHT WOOOOT !!!!!!

♥ getting chocolate from dad after being busted for drinking

♥ time to quit !

downs;

- getting trials back

- normal school commencing yday

- getting busted for drinking ....

- quitting ...

so lemme explain.

first few 'ups' are pretty straightforward.

now, you may be shocked at the last 2 ups ! HAHA.

so on saturday night, i went drinking in city with a few friends.

got prettyyyyy crazy omg HAHAHA. was heaps of fun though =].

got home around 1230am.

thanks to danny le for taking me home ! =] much appreciated ~

before i explain the second last 'up', i need to explain my second last 'down'.

dad caught me drinking and confronted me about it.

of course, i could not deny it because he pulled logic on me )=.

so there i was, waiting for him to rage at me on the phone.

but he didn`t.

then i was sitting at home waiting for him to come back around 4pm ish .. waiting for the rage any asian daughter would expect their asian father to express about this sort of thing, right ? indeed.

HOWEVER, SHOCKER ~ ...

he didn`t rage at me, instead told me not to try and trick him, and proceeded to give me a toblerone O_O".

HAHAHAAH YAYYYYYY didn`t get raged at all ^^

♥♥♥♥♥. and got yummeh chocolate !!!

nwaiiz, the last 'up' and 'down' ... well it`s an 'up' cos i`m finally quitting. or well, trying to. going to try for a week starting today, and see how that goes. =].

'down' because i have a feeling i`m going to crave soon. but ohwells ... =]

fuck, i`m hoping this doesn`t get back to my parental figures. or others. )= ..

please don`t ?

thanks guys ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥.

[and yes you could say i didn`t have to post this ... but ohwells =_=']

thirtytwo ; d a y E L E V E N

Day 11 – What’s in your makeup bag?

Day 11 — A deceased person you wish you could talk to.

MY MAKE UP BAG.

WELLLL ..

i have !

♥ my contacts [usually just one colour, or an empty lens case if i`m wearing them]

♥ black eyeliner

♥ brown eyeshadow + sponge brush thingomabob

♥ mascara

♥ lip gloss

♥ lipstick

♥ .... i think that`s it .. HAHA. =].

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erm. i wish i could talk to ... ohmy so many =/. hrm.

king leonidas.

queen hatshepsut

king tutankhamun

king thuthmose I, II and III

most of the ancient rulers of the ancient worlds .. i would LOVE to talk to them ....

but definitely impossible haha.

)=.

but going away from the ancient dead, to the modern ..

erm.

i guess ...

rosalind franklin, tbh. i want to know how she felt about photo 51 being stolen and about not being able to win the noble prize.

yes i know, bio has gotten to me =='.

mm. also;

steve irwin =D.

MJ no doubt.

fck i can`t think of anyone else. ROFLS.

how random am i ey ?!?!?! ...

;D.

thirtyone ; d a y T E N

Day 10 – A photo of your favorite place to eat.

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

BASSIM KOREAN BBQ IN STRATHFIELD !

SO . NICE . OMG . =D.

went today with jeniffer & candace ! =]].

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SILAS )=.

we don`t talk much anymore, and i know that`s my fault.

i was selfish before, and thought of myself before you.

but i really want to change that now ..

=/.

sigh i dernos.

was good seeing you again after so long at Rice Fever !

blehs. miss those tight hugs we used to have.

i am. so fucking sorry.

i should never have done all that stuff.

i`m only realising now how much i have to apologise for, to you and many others.

i`m slow, ey ? haha.

anyway, i still consider you my brother, but i don`t know how it is for you.

hope we get to catch up soon ..

and we shall go dancing or something after hsc, and i shall watch you be a pro ;D

bahahaha.

♥♥♥♥♥ !!!!!

thirty ; q u i z t a x e d f r o m J A N

so i taxed this from Jan`s blog hahaha. thanks huns ;D.

This is going to be mαjorly personαl, you reαdy?
yeppskies.

Promise to tαke this without deleting αny questions?
sure thang O_O"

Are you hαppier now thαn you were five months αgo?
yes i am =D. even tho trials results are coming back now, and hsc in the near near future, i am happier =D. because school is nearly over ^^. and i start a new chapter in my life, as cliche as that sounds =D.

Hαve you ever slept in the sαme bed with αnyone?
yessss LOLLLL. numerous sleepovers =L.

Cαn you sleep in totαl dαrkness?
hmm. sometimes. i usually have the light of the room outside my bedroom on though. easier to get around in the middle of night, say to toilet or bathroom. but i`m pretty much okay with lights off.

Your phone is ringing. It’s the person you fell hαrdest for, whαt do you sαy?
eyyy sup ?

ahaha. doesn`t matter who it is, as long as it`s not family, i say 'sup' =]

Whαt do you think αbout the weαther?
getting slightly warmer. although the other day was what the fuck, with the hail ? and shit O_O"

Are you ticklish?
YES I AM. although i don`t think i`m as ticklish as i used to be ...

How mαny people do you trust with everything?
very little. a few ? but not all of them know EVERYTHING. so like. different things with each person ? =S haha.

Whαt wαs the lαst thing you drαnk?
WATER ! =O. shocker ;D.

Is there αnyone you wαnt to come see you?
hmm. at the moment, not really. i`m pretty good right now haha !

Nαme one thing you love αbout winter?
stealing guys jackets ;D. JOKESJOKES. being able to hug a lot haha.

Hαve you ever dαted α Goth?
er nope Oo

Are you currently looking forwαrd to tomorrow?
not really ....... getting results back )=. and question to be done in ancient, under exam conditions. SIGH. i should study HAHAHA ... wait. my notes are in my locker ==

Nαme something you dislike αbout the dαy you’re hαving?
uhmm. had a crappy morning with intense thoughts, as well as a boring as shit year meeting. oh. also got ancient history trial results back. that was fucked up. sigh ..

Cαn you commit to one person αnd one person only?
definitely. i`m a taurus haha. =/.

Whαt’s the first thing you did when you opened your eyes todαy?
look at the time, then close my eyes again.

Hαs αnyone told you they don’t wαnt to ever lose you?
something like that.

Hαve you ever kissed the lαst person you sent α text messαge to?
LOLOLOL .. yes i have. but i`m not going to say who =].

Is there αnybody thαt you wish you could fix things with?
yes.

Could you go out in public, looking like you do now?
erm. guess so. but not to bigbig places. maybe a quick maccas run, or quick woolies run .. HAHA>

Do you think things will chαnge in the next 3 months?
FUCK YES. HSC OVER. HIGH SCHOOL OVER. FUCKING PARTYINGGGGGG WOOT ! =DDDD

You never know whαt you got until you lose it, true or fαlse?
fuck yes.

Do you hαve α friend of the opposite sex you cαn tαlk to?
mhms. but i keep a lot to myself anyway .. haha.

Life without your best friend, how’d thαt go?
didn`t know what i was missing until i met her haha. ♥♥.

Whαt do you miss the most αbout your pαst?
being naive. being carefree. not giving a shit about the future, about any problems in life.

Ever get hurt by someone who promised they wouldn’t?
hmmm. i`m not going to lie and say yes, cos i`m honestly not sure ..

Are you good αt hiding your feelings?
usually. i tend to bottle things up haha.

Are you listening to music right now?
yes i am ! itunes on laptop ;D

When wαs the lαst time you were in α very good mood?
saturday night !!!!! =DD. crazy night at city haha !

Would you hook up with your sister's best friend?
...... FUCK NO. my sister is 9. HAHAHA.

Where is the person who hαs your heαrt αt the moment?
errrr. like jan said, me ? lols. no one else has my heart =].

Hαve you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do?
numerous times >_>""".

Hαve you lαughed todαy?
YEPPP !

Whαt mαde you lαugh reαlly hαrd todαy?
thinking of what happened saturday night =D.

Do you trust eαsily?
no. lols. i don`t.

Are you one of those people who just doesn’t cαre?
oh i wish >>". some things i don`t care about, but overall .. yeh i do lols.

Would you rαther not eαt or not sleep?
erms. i love my food and sleep too much omg )=.

Whαt do you normαlly drink in the morning?
water/orange juice/coffee

Cαn you wαlk into α room full of strαngers αnd mαintαin your confidence?
no. dad says i don`t have the same confidence i used to have when i was little ...

Does tαlking αbout sex mαke you uncomfortαble?
nah LOL. pdhpe and having wrong minded friends has killed that off ;D.

Do you believe thαt αll boys αre the sαme?
deep inside my heart, no. but lols ..

You αre single, why?
because i like it haha. it`s fun =]

Did you drink αny αlcohol this week? Did you get drunk?
yes .. and yes .. LOL.

Do you like to cuddle?
depends with who haha.

Would you ever try being α vegetαriαn?
NONONONONO. I LOVE MY RED MEAT OMGGGG ! =OOOOO ♥♥♥♥♥v

Do you believe thαt there’s αlwαys room in your heαrt for someone?
well, yeah. i`m not that up myself ... O_O".

Hαve you ever hαd stitches?
yes ! hahaha

How come you’re not going out with the person you like/love?
because there`s no one i like/love atm =].

Are you busy tomorrow?
yes i am. o.o school. )=.

Are you weαring pαnts?
YES !

Do you think someone is thinking αbout you?
errr. i have no idea.

Are you short?
YESSSSS ... 160cm ? FML )=. i love my heels HAHA.

If you won α million dollαrs, whαt would be your first thought?
CAR. SPORTS CAR. FUCKING DONE UP. WHEEEEEE =D.

Is your phone right beside you?
always !

Do you know αnyone thαt is gαy?
let me just wave to all the trinity guys i know ! HAHAHAHA *waves* HI ! ;D.

Who wαs the lαst person to smoke α cigαrette in your presence?
must i name them all ? OHWAIT. NO jeniffer tong ! this arvo XD. but before that on sat night .. i don`t even know all the guys who were there HAHAHAHA.

Is it cute when guys/girl kiss you on your foreheαd?
hm. i guess ?

How mαny people cαn comfortαbly sleep in your bed?

.... one. =_='

The very first time you kissed your current bf/gf, who mαde it hαppen?
i don`t have a bf atm =]

Whαt wαs the lαst video you wαtched on YouTube?
JUSTIN BIEBER GETTING A WATER BOTTLE THROWN AT HIS HEAD ! either that or a 'baby' video mocking tony abbott HAHA.

Would you ever αgree to αn open relαtionship with someone?
nah.

Is there something thαt you could never give up?
i`m pretty sure there is. =/.

Would you prefer α smαll, intimαte wedding proposαl, or α big-scαle, over-the-top proposαl?
hm. i`d want it small .. but also in front of a few people =/.

Whαt’s bothering you right now?
ancient. trial results. other things. hahaha =].

Do you hαte αnyone?
extreme dislike =='.

Whαt were you doing αt 12αm lαst night?
just got into bed hahaha.

Do you drink more αpple or orαnge juice?
both. apple juice is yummeh. black label orange juice is the bomb HAHA.

Wαs this summer α good one?
errr .. guess so. =/. don`t remember LOL

You kissed someone todαy, didn't you?
sorry, wrong day ;].

Do you hαve αny plαns for the weekend?
sleep ! OH, RICE RALLY ! and sleep. HAHA.

Is the lαst person you kissed mαd αt you?
i hope not O_O".

Cαn α boy αnd girl be friends without hαving feelings for eαch other?
chyeahhhh ! duh. ==".

If the lαst person you kissed, sαw you kissing someone else, would they be mαd?
i`m pretty sure he wouldn`t be LOL.

Does the person you like, like you bαck?
don`t like anyone atm, so no HAHA

Do you think long distαnce relαtionships work?
guess you could try .... but no, not really.

Do you believe in kissing when you’re not together yet?
yes haha. as long as you both understand what it is you have between the two of you.

twentynine ; d a y N I N E

Day 9 – A photo of the item you last purchased.

Day 9 — A letter to someone you wish you could meet

well i can`t really show what i last got or else if family finds out i`ll be smashed,

but i can show something else i got recently !

pretty phone covers =D. currently using the black & green one.

SO NICEEEE =D.

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someone i wish i could meet O_O"

i`m really not sure ....

hmm.

maybe a celeb ? no idea who though ><"

too hard to choose haha .. D= !

sorry guys for this fail entry HAHAHA ...

=S.

twentyeight ; d a y E I G H T

Day 8 – A song to match your mood.

Day 8 — A letter to your favorite internet friend

hmmmm. i don`t know waht song matches my mood atm =S.

well, i`m listening to Gallery by Mario Vasquez right now, but that doesn`t really match my mood Oo

i`m ... feeling normal.

is there a song for that feeling ? HAHAHA =L,

let me know, someone ! HAHAHA

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favourite internet friend ? who would that be O_O

i know everyone on the net, that i talk to ......

=S.

can i not put anyone ? i honestly don`t know.

hrm.

but if i must ..

JAN ZHANG = DDDD

we don`t talk that much on the net, but the gossip and things we talk about after school when we meet up

and at Pumpkins .. ;D.

AND THAT TIME AT THE PARK LAST WEEK HAHAHA.

had a great time relaxing with you =].

and your slow moments HEHE.

and the times anika and i have bagged you out ;D.

andddd the times you missed our calls, or had your phone off ... NO COMMENT .

and are we seriously formal dress shopping ? in campsie ? D= wtf ? HAHA.

anddd .. we must get drunk together one day ! after hsc WHEEEEEE

and this isn`t even a letter, and might not make sense, but WHATEVER !!!!

LOVE YOUUUU

♥♥♥♥♥

twentyseven ; d a y S E V E N

Day 7 – Your dream wedding.

Day 7 — A letter to your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

my dream wedding ..

to be honest, i`ve never really thought about wedding O_O".

i never imagined myself married and with kids, to be honest =S.

but if i ever do get married, i think ..

well.

i`d love to have family there obviously [but hopefully my parents will be able to get on then ><"], friends, hopefully no pink at all O_O"""" LOL.

hmmmmm .. i really don`t know ><"

i`m not going for the full traditional white wedding, nor the full traditional chinese weddings ..

sigh.

no people, it won`t be all black !!! that`s just depressing )= HAHA. for a wedding, duh !

ermmm ..

O_O".

i have no idea.

but maybe one day you`ll get a wedding invitation from me, and you`ll find out =D. HAHA.

... if i was loaded .. shit. that would be an awesome wedding O_O'

but since i`m not .. HAHAHAHA.

ohwells =L.

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hrm. ex it is, then.

i don`t know what to say to you O_O".

i don`t mind being friends with you now, and all, and i`m glad you`ve stopped telling me what to do >>"

but sometimes i dread convos with you, on the phone. =/.

LOL. sorry ><". it`s the truth.

i know i`ve told you i wouldn`t change a thing if we went back to the past

but i`m not too sure anymore.

if we could go back, i wouldn`t be as naive as i was. or retarded. etcetc.

sorry if you see this and you get hurt.

but i think we`re both sick of the way we end our phone convos.

i`ve learnt a lot about life since then, and i`m a changed person despite what you say.

hope it`s clear that you`re just a friend to me, as i should be to you.

=].

twentysix ; d a y S I X

Day 6 – A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.

Day 6 - A letter to a stranger

wolf cub

white tiger cub

tiger cub

lion cub

so i couldn`t choose between these gorgeous, adorable tykes ! =D. they`re so cute !

♥♥♥ haha ="]."

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letter to a stranger .. hmm ..

i guess, to the randoms who talk to me at the bus stop, hope the short chats are enjoyable.

i`m not certain what we talk about, but if i was helping you with bus times etcetc, you`re welcome =D.

OH. to the taxi driver who took my cousin and i to my grandma`s place on friday arvo, thanks for giving me a discount ! =]

er.

i think that`s it LOL ...

twentyfive ; d a y F I V E

Day 5 – A photo of yourself two years ago.

Day 5 — A letter to your dreams

well, this was a pic from july 2008, when i dyed and permed my hair ^^

quite different, for a change. the colour in my hair you see now .. ?

like the blondey-browny etc colour ?

it`s from the violet red you see here. LOL ! faded xD

and it shows how slowly my hair grows .. [note; i redyed it in november 2008]

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A letter to my dreams.

erm. as in .. dreams at night ? or .. what my dream/goal is ? O_O"

hrm.

dear dreams at night .. why are you so random.

it was so weird waking up to a slight chest pain the other day because i dreamt i got shot in the chest by my uncle. O_O". wtf ? LOL ...

dear dreams at night .. stop dreaming about what will never be ! it gives me false hope .. )=

dear dreams at night .. sometimes i wish i remembered all of you ! as in, the whole dream ! HAHA.

dear dream/goal/aspiration .. i have no idea what you are yet.

other than the goal of getting into unsw for criminology

but that`s not really a dream .. just a want.

dream would be .. (8)i wanna be a millionaire, so freakin bad !(8)

was that right ? LOL ! no idea.

ohwells.

dear dreams .. in general .. er .. awesome. =].

[ps i`m sleep deprived LOLLLL]

twentyfour ; d a y F O U R

Day 4 – Your favorite photograph of your best friend.

Day 4 — A letter to your sibling (or closest relative)

click to see full pic =/. gg.

HEHE.

from left -> right

yvonne ; me ; cass

♥♥♥♥♥

LOVE YOU BOTH ! =].

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letter to sister.

er. well.

.... uhmmm ..

i dunno what to say

STOP BEING SO ANNOYIN.

HAHAHAA jokes =]. you`re 9, obviously you`re annoying =].

erm still love you though ; and

hope you never have to go through what i`ve been through ..

always there for you,

and i`m going to be so D= when you grow up ... =/.

damn you, i want your early skinniness ! HAHA.

you`re gonna get so many guys ;O

...

hire me as your bodyguard when you grow up ^^.

hahaha.

♥♥.